Confirmation

Nearly two weeks ago, on 9th November, I went to a conference room in a hotel near Euston station. There I met a new barrister, the solicitor, a neuroradiologist, a midwife, an obstetrician, a consultant neonatologist, via telephone a paediatric neurologist and my mother and brother - to help me cope. All the experts agreed that the hospital were negligent and more importantly that there is a strong case for the hospital to answer. I am trying to process the outcome I flit between acceptance, anger - always the anger - sadness and a whole lot more as well as the tiredness from day to day living. Another seizure - on the night of 10th November (I was glad I was there I wasn't home until 10:30pm after the conference the night before) - put the painfulness on hold while we dealt with that, then of course there is the anger that we shouldn't have the seizures if the hospital had performed their duties properly. I want to punish the hospital so much. All the experts at the conference agreed that my baby should have been out before any damage happened yet the hospital in their responses to my questions refused to admit any wrong doing - why? I have always blamed myself now I know it wasn't my fault, the hospital must have known that all those years ago too. I am angry on so many levels.