Perhaps the previous title was over optimistic. I'm grieving. It was a horrible week last week. I am not coping well. DS's solicitors visited for two days, asked me questions for two days, made me cry for two days. It was raw and painful and there was nowhere to hide. They left and I had DS's Statement review. The solicitor visit was not helpful preparation and left me feeling more and more as though I am letting him down.

The Chief Executive of Leeds NHS Trust has written me a letter of apology. It is comical. It is inaccurate. It has caused me further upset. I must write back to her. The letter claims that Leeds NHS Trust no longer manages labour in the way my labour was managed. I fail to see how that claim is accurate. Does she mean that Leeds NHS Trust no longer uses midwives and CTG machines to monitor labour at the LGI? Really? This just cannot be true. If anyone out there has recently given birth at the LGI knows whether or not the hospital still makes use of midwives and CTG machines I would love to hear from you...

So solicitors, Statement review, 'apology' letter. It was all too much. I went away. Alone.

Positively though when I returned I had a letter: the NMC have opened three cases in the names of the three individual midwives I referred to them.