It arrived

Yesterday the Trust confirmed receipt of the letter.

So why am I doing this? I am going to try to explain why I have reached the point of taking legal action against the Trust I will not name but feel sure were recently featured on series 3 of a Channel 4 television show, obviously I am not sure of this claim because I haven't got a television.

I feel so angry. I can't make sense of it sometimes. I have my baby what do I have to be angry about?

Where to start? I am angry about how we were treated. I am angry about the resulting brain damage. I am angry that in all the letters the hospital wrote to me they did not once answer a question without covering their backs.

For example, I asked the hospital

'How often does the manufacturer [of the machine we were attached to] recommend the machine should be serviced and when was this last done?'

The hospital replied

'The manufacturer recommends yearly servicing and the next service is due in 2005.'

When I received my hospital notes I read correspondence between hospital employees that acknowledged the machine had been overdue a service when it was being used as my son was born. The facts are not as upsetting as the underhand answer to the perfectly reasonable question.

So I am angry not just at the way we were treated, the resulting brain damage, the life-long struggle DS will now have because of the resulting brain damage but also the bloody-mindedness of the hospital that caused that damage.

It is comforting to note that amongst the rude letters I have received from the Chief Executive is the claim that 'the quality of the CTG was good and able to be interpreted' I can't wait to hear him explain how the midwives missed the persistent complex variable decelerations and the 6 in 10 minute contractions and decided to increase the Syntocinon.